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Madoka Sugai: A Life in Dance

I was born in 1994, in the vibrant city of Tokyo, Japan. My parents, though not dancers themselves, had an immense appreciation for the arts. It was this appreciation that they instilled in me from a very young age. The melody of a piano piece, the sweeping brushstrokes of a painting, and the graceful movements of dancers captivated me, but it was ballet that stole my heart.

My first encounter with ballet was at the age of five, attending a performance of “The Nutcracker” at the prestigious Tokyo Bunka Kaikan. As Clara’s doll, Marie, spun across the stage, her joy and exuberance were infectious, captivating me in a way no other art form ever had. I was mesmerised, yearning to feel the magic that resonated through the theatre. I told my mother, in a mix of halting Japanese and excited gibberish, that I wanted to dance like the ballerina. And so began my journey into the world of ballet.

My parents, ever supportive, enrolled me in a local ballet school. There, under the tutelage of Ms. Kobayashi, a stern yet encouraging teacher, I began my training. As a child, my world revolved around ballet. I practised every day, each plié and relevé etching its way into my very being. I yearned to move as seamlessly as the swans in Swan Lake, to soar as gracefully as Aurora in The Sleeping Beauty, and to emote with the fierce strength of Giselle. I found joy in the discipline, the elegance, the expressiveness, and the constant striving for perfection that ballet demanded. It became more than just a hobby, it was a language, a story, and a life I wanted to live.

My initial years were marked by dedication and relentless practice. While most children my age dreamt of princesses and toys, my fantasies revolved around graceful pirouettes, challenging arabesques, and flawless extensions. Even the smallest corrections from Ms. Kobayashi held a significant weight for me, each word carving the path towards my dreams. Her wisdom, infused with a love for the art form, sculpted me into the dancer I was to become.

However, ballet was not merely about the technical precision; it was about emotion, expression, and storytelling. The first time I performed onstage, my heart hammered against my ribs, but the music enveloped me. I felt the power of the music coursing through my body, guiding my every movement, my steps becoming an extension of the score itself. It was a revelation, a magical merging of movement and emotion. In those fleeting moments on stage, I understood the true magic of ballet - it wasn’t merely a dance, but a language that spoke to the very core of our being.

As I progressed, I realised the sheer amount of dedication and sacrifice required to truly excel. The physical demands were relentless, but the emotional investment was equally crucial. In those years, the stage became my canvas, my body the paintbrush, and my soul the brushstroke. I honed my skills with an unrelenting zeal, attending numerous competitions and recitals. Every performance, regardless of its size, became a learning experience, each success a steppingstone on my journey to becoming a professional ballerina.

Early Years and Breakthroughs

My adolescence was marked by relentless training, numerous auditions, and the bittersweet joy of a scholarship to the prestigious Royal Ballet School in London. It was a dream come true, a chance to immerse myself in a culture of excellence, but also a significant leap of faith, leaving behind the comfort of my home and familiar surroundings. The London school was a melting pot of aspiring dancers, each pushing themselves to the limits of their talent.

The first few months were tough. London’s grey skies felt distant and cold compared to the familiar warmth of Tokyo, the language a hurdle, and the constant comparisons with my peers at times felt like a heavy weight on my shoulders. However, the allure of learning from world-renowned ballet masters, immersing myself in the vibrant culture of dance, and experiencing a global community of passionate artists kept me motivated.

I thrived under the guidance of mentors who understood my strengths and helped me polish my weaknesses. I found my voice as a dancer, learning to embrace the intricacies of the British ballet style and integrating it with my own Japanese sensibility. Every day was a new lesson, every rehearsal a step forward. It was during this period that I honed my signature style: a delicate, flowing elegance infused with the strength and power that was innate to my Japanese upbringing.

A breakthrough moment occurred during a student performance of “La Sylphide”. As the titular sylph, I felt a sense of freedom, the music and movements flowing through me in a way I had never experienced before. The applause at the end felt not only for the performance but also for my years of dedication, and the long hours spent honing my craft. This moment solidified my desire to pursue ballet professionally.

Upon graduation from the Royal Ballet School, I received an invitation to join the esteemed Tokyo Ballet, an opportunity I embraced with immense gratitude.

The Tokyo Ballet Era

My debut with the Tokyo Ballet in “Giselle” was a pivotal moment in my career. It was challenging, but I was fortunate to have a mentor in the legendary Prima Ballerina, Chieko Ogasawara. Under her guidance, I discovered new depths to my expression, learning to channel the character’s heartbreak, sorrow, and ultimate sacrifice through movement.

I gradually became a staple performer in the company, playing prominent roles in classical ballets like “Swan Lake”, “Sleeping Beauty”, and “Don Quixote”. Each role was a challenge, demanding technical skill and emotional nuance. However, it was the contemporary pieces that resonated with my soul the most. Works by choreographers like Martha Graham and Jerome Robbins allowed me to explore my own artistic interpretations and showcase a more contemporary, expressive style.

I embraced the versatility the Tokyo Ballet offered. The company’s repertoire, ranging from classical masterpieces to innovative modern interpretations, provided a constant challenge and opportunity for growth. Every rehearsal became a conversation with the choreographers, learning the intricacies of each piece and how to breathe life into the choreographer’s vision.

In my early years with the Tokyo Ballet, I found myself juggling demanding rehearsals and performances, attending ballet classes, and trying to maintain a semblance of a social life. It was a time of intense physical and emotional growth. I discovered the resilience of the human spirit and learned to push beyond perceived limitations. While the physical exhaustion was a constant companion, the feeling of joy after a performance, the audience’s response, and the thrill of stepping onto that stage made all the sacrifices worthwhile.

One of the most profound experiences during this time was the opportunity to collaborate with world-renowned choreographers. Working alongside artistic visionaries who viewed ballet as a means to explore social commentary, human emotion, and cultural complexities challenged my perception of dance and expanded my understanding of its potential. These experiences deepened my appreciation for ballet as a vehicle for artistic expression and a language that transcended geographical and cultural barriers.

Beyond the Stage

The journey of a professional ballerina isn’t always easy. I faced many obstacles - injuries, self-doubt, the relentless pressure to constantly improve and prove myself. Ballet became an intimate part of my being, my every thought and action influenced by its demands.

Despite the inherent challenges, I never lost sight of the magic of dance. The joy of a successful performance, the appreciation from the audience, and the bond forged with fellow dancers kept me going. As the years passed, my passion for ballet began to manifest in ways beyond performance. I realised that my love for ballet could inspire others and contribute to the art form in meaningful ways.

My desire to give back led me to teach ballet at the community level. It was an incredibly rewarding experience to watch young students discover the magic of dance and to guide them on their own journeys. Witnessing their progress and excitement fueled my own passion and validated the value of my craft.

However, it was my exploration of writing that opened a whole new world for me. The art of storytelling has always fascinated me. As a dancer, I was already narrating tales through movement. But the written word offered another dimension of storytelling, a chance to delve into the emotions, thoughts, and complexities of the characters and situations I brought to life.

My first publication was a short story about a young ballerina overcoming her anxieties to perform. It was received positively and encouraged me to explore this newfound talent further. Soon, I began writing about the trials and triumphs of life as a dancer, exploring the emotional landscape of performance, and shedding light on the complexities of the ballet world. My words were an extension of my dance, each sentence weaving a story that mirrored my experiences and observations.

As a young ballerina turned author, my work became a reflection of my artistic journey and my appreciation for the magic of storytelling, both on and off the stage.

Continuing the Legacy

As a ballerina in her late 20s, I’m at a pivotal point in my career. I’ve witnessed a transformation in the ballet world, where diversity, inclusivity, and breaking barriers are embraced. This newfound emphasis on individuality has encouraged me to continue my exploration of artistic expression, not just through dance but also through writing, hoping to inspire and contribute to the evolution of ballet as an art form that celebrates its unique voice and embraces a range of perspectives.

I continue to be drawn to the emotional complexity that ballet allows, exploring the nuances of human emotions, relationships, and vulnerabilities. This pursuit has opened doors for me to choreograph original pieces, blending classical elegance with modern techniques and showcasing a perspective that draws inspiration from my unique blend of cultural influences.

My goals now extend beyond performing on stage. I envision a future where my stories inspire young dancers to find their own voices, where my writings encourage audiences to delve deeper into the intricacies of ballet, and where my choreographic work continues to push boundaries, celebrate the beauty of human expression, and challenge traditional norms.

Ballet has shaped me into the artist I am today. Every pliĂ©, every pirouette, every rehearsal, and every performance have contributed to the story of my life. The stage remains my haven, my sanctuary, but I embrace the opportunity to share my experiences, insights, and perspectives beyond the confines of the theatre. This pursuit of expressing myself through different art forms is a continuation of the journey that began with a five-year-old girl mesmerized by the magical world of ballet, and it’s a journey that I am excited to continue.